SomethingI talked to you today.It was kind of surprising, really.I've gone so long without you in my life that I've gotten used to that feeling that there's something missing.The impact wasn't as I've been expecting, hoping for.Maybe it's because it was about your shirt, the time, and how we were getting home.Or maybe it's because I'm finally getting over you.Not about why you left me.But it was something.And you fist bumped me, the way you do.Maybe that something was all I needed to bring me back into reality.
BracketsAngeline.Poor[Sweet]Angeline.Sitting in a corner[Crouching on the floor]Trying to smile[Covering up the pain]Pretending[Holding onto dear life]I deserve this[No]I do[But you don't]She thinks[And she isn't thinking]I doColored marks on her armslegsface[Bruises, cuts, pain]Angelinedoesn't understand[It's not a game, Ange]She sitsand waitsfor it to stop[And it doesn't]Think of the bestLook to the bright side[But there isn't one]It will all go away[Hopefully][Run][Now][Don't you want out of this hell?]
AngelineAngeline.Poor Angeline.Desperate Angeline.Nothing Angeline.Cowering in a cornerHiding from realityShe pretends not to seeShe acts like she doesn't hearBut she knows. She's always known.WhimperingS C R E A M I N GCryingHopingPrentendingGet awayRunRunRun AngelineGet away from the horrorsGet away from it allL E A V ELeave now.Don't tellAngelineDon't.You won't.Hide the bruisesHide the painHide the hurtHide the shame.It's all she can do.Words echo off the wallsRun through her headYou are nobobyYou have no voiceDon't.Is love too much to ask for?Yes?Yes.Don't ask.Don't try.Hide. Hide Angeline.Angeline.Angeline?
Random VentYou know, I just realized how badly you treated me. It was always back and forth with you. One day you would be totally in love with me, tell me all these sweet things, and do anything to talk to me. But the next day, that would all be gone. You would all of a sudden "feel nothing" and just walk out of my life. It's like you don't realize how much that hurt me. I honestly think I might have been in love with you, and you just kept walking in and walking out. I can't handle that. You need to pick something and stick with it. I think that if you choose not to love me, I can deal with that. I can get over you. I can move on. Sure. But if you come back into my life, deciding to change your mind, that isn't okay. Because you know I'll give in to you. You know I would have you if I could. Now that I think of it, did you ever use me? No, I don't think so. There wasn't ever anyone else. Okay, so that's good. But you need to stop this. You don't make any sense! I thought we were finally over ea