Reality vs. Mind

In my mind…
I can still hear your words
                "We'll be together for all eternity."
You spoke of me in such a high manor
Like I was actually special to you
But in reality…
I  hear the piercing rain
Beating down on the windows
They were my heart
That I held wide open for you
And you are the knife
Showing me that you never really cared
For me

In my mind…
I try to forget that I
Let you in..
Shared my darkest secrets with you..
And let myself love you
More than life itself..
But in reality…
I really did
All of that
And
I can never forgive myself

In my mind…
I still want to love you.
I still want to need you.
But in reality…
You won't let me
You've moved on
To someone else.
Life isn't fair

In my mind…
We're back to
The happy days
You never cheated
And we are madly in love
But in reality…
There's only sad
And lonely days
You probably never loved me.