forget i said anything

this is probably crazy but i think i might be in love with you. it's weird. i don't know what to think. i might be one of those people that falls in love too fast.
and i don't think you feel the same way. it's driving me insane.  
i want you so bad. you walked back into my life and you are  absolutely not allowed to leave me again. don't. i'm not allowing it.
please?
but then again i don't want to push you away with all of this. that's exactly the opposite of what i want.
what i actually want is for you to tell me you love me. i've been waiting for you to so that i can say it back and we can both be all happy. at least i would be.
yesterday seems so distant. you sending me little '<3's and saying i make you happier than you make me and how your favorite part of the school day is seeing me. that's what i want.
of course, i did prompt this conversation. not you. sigh.
but today sucked. nothing. i feel like you don't want to talk to me. you stop replying. you don't text me first anymore so i have to do it myself. because i want to talk to you so badly.
i've probably checked about 150 times in the last 5 minutes if you've replied to my message from an hour ago.
you haven't.
i think about you all day long. my life is perfect with you.
please. stay.
i want to - i need to - ask you. have you moved on? do you still want me? of course i want you to say yes to the latter. but at the same time i care about you all too much to force you into something that you don't want. so if you need to leave, get it over with so i can at least attempt to move on. (ha-ha)
but. please don't.
it just saddens me to think that you are done with the idea of 'us' when you are the one who even brought it up.
just checked again. you still haven't replied.
maybe we're just not meant to be and i've just come to realize it. forget i said anything.